Back on track

Sorry sorry. I've been busy.

Since Paris it's been all about knuckling down and working hard. Fingers crossed it pays off.

Anyway, mondo stressed. Wasn't so stressed yesterday but things have changed / turned to shite since yesterday.

1. The place I thought I was going to live in during summer - turns out the letting agency has now done a 180 and said no, you can't stay there. Which would have been a fine thing to say 3 months ago. Not now. How the heck am I supposed to find a place to stay in one month. Looks like I'm going to be homeless from July.
   
   
2. Job hunting is also going nowhere. I've applied and applied. And applied. I feel... unemployable. There was a news article in the Daily Mail (of all places) of this girl who had sent over 200 applications for jobs and gotten none and she committed suicide. Depressing thought! She only had A-Levels so I thought, hey, I've got a degree and soon a post-grad! I should do better! Wrong. Well wrong so far anyway. Not to worry, I don't think I'm suicidal. Heavily worried about my future and almost immobile with fear, but not suicidal.
   
   
3. Last assessment looming. I'm really putting my all into these last ones. I haven't gotten all the grades I've wanted so far so it's all or nothing now. I should have worked harder during the last ones. Well, at the time I thought I did ok, but who knows. Please just give me a few more VCs. Please. I shouldn't please you. I should be slapping myself and shouting Come-on!

To France in a couple of days. I've started doing waitressing work with a recruitment company in Cardiff so I've got some jobs lined up before and after I go. I really want the security of a contracted or permanent job though. I have to pay my own rent and everything from July onwards. I've never had to do that before...

So if any of you have spare wishes or prayers left, if I could squeeze in a little corner of that to say help please that would be cool. If not, I understand that you have better things to do than be kind to the less fortunate. I'm sure you're feeding orphans in Africa or caring for sick puppies or something like that.

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Back to the topic of France...

I really am excited to go. Well I was more excited to go a few days ago but the burden of recent events has somewhat diminished that light. If only I could go to Saint-Etienne and come back and all my problems were solved! I'd have a place to live and a great job. That's really all I want from life now.

So when can I open my present?