Its one of those
late nights where there
is something I should be doing but I don’t feel like doing it. I
SHOULD be studying but I’ve
done all the notes for EU and I’ll
start IP tomorrow. Promise!
So the topic of this post is something along the lines of
unintentional change – personality wise. And yes it’s got something to do with
relationships *cringe* so reader discretion is advised.
N.B. I really don’t like writing posts about relationships because I
don’t think there should be anything to write about. It should be
easy going and the only thing to do is
be yourself etc.
With reference to the above, that’s the whole problem. Once you
like someone, it’s hard not to like the same things they like. I mean, sure there are bound to be
similar interests and things like that but after a while it’s tough to disentangle your
own likes and dislikes with the other persons. Not to say you lost yourself completely but you find yourself noticing and appreciating things that you never noticed before, just by the sheer fact that you like that person.
When you spend
copious amounts of time with a person there is a tendency to try and
compromise certain things just because you’re gonna have to spend a lot of time with them in the future and you don’t wanna make things
awkward. At this time of writing, nothing in particular springs to mind but the feeling still lingers in my mind. I’m pretty sure I’ve been guilty of it a few times – hidden it a lot, been moody a bit.
Credit to The Boy tho he’s been a
trooper.
The Boy – the title is now officially yours. Not feeling too possessive today, hence the “The”.* * *
Personally speaking, I find that when I like someone, and they tell me that they like something that I do or something about me; it makes me
madly aware that I do it. And
unforch it also makes me
wanna do it more just by the mere fact that they like it. Then it ends up I do it
too often and it
backfires.
I mean, I’m aware of this thing that I do so I really try not to do it.
And now to gush about The Boy – he says
those kindsa things, but its things I do that
I don’t even try to do to impress him or make him like me. Which is nice cos it means I can
be myself and
be a slob and things like that.
*snicker*And I’m a firm follower of
reciprocal affection. Just a memo for the future.
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I don’t know how many people have had this conversation with their partners or lovers or spouses or other halves (
unmarried people anyway) but there’s this
line of conversation that involves heavily in discussing marriage, kids, kids names, family and the works.
Not to say that I don’t think about it – not to a detailed degree – but it’s more of a
general idea than a
time-specific plan.
Of course there are
some things that I want in life and
some things I expect and there are
some things that I’ll just wait and see how it pans out. I’m
not so good with
specific details – because I need
focus. It’s always been the case that when faced with questions, I can come up with some
surprising details off the
top of my head.
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Summer, I can’t wait for you to get here…
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And Surprisingly I've also learned that sex isn't all about the end result. What a blow for the porn industry. Not literally of course.